Where the Hell Is Spring?


I’m freezing. My whole body is shivering at the moment, and I’m under my heated blanket. I just got up to grab a cup of hot cocoa and my heating pad to try and break the shivering.

Today was a complete lazy day. I had some stomach issues last night, and I just didn’t feel well at all this morning. I went back to sleep for a few hours and was basically a bum until the afternoon.

I have a love-hate relationship with days like these. I love to sleep, and during the day is the only time that I don’t have trouble sleeping, but I also get down on myself when I waste a day. I know that my body really needed the rest today. I’ve been running around like crazy for the last two weeks, and my plate has really been full.

it’s like my body just cried uncle last night and I couldn’t push myself today. I got pretty annoyed this past weekend at a well-meaning person who suggested that I need to work on pushing through a bit more. I hate when people judge your circumstance without really knowing what you’re going through.

It’s frustrating enough to be in this kind of pain. Heck, I just got up to get a cup of cocoa and my hips were all locked up, but knee hurts, and my muscles through my back and neck are tight. I’m on the fence as to whether I’m getting a migraine or not.

I feel like crap, and I know my body well enough that if I was to push through today, I’d have been useless for tomorrow and possibly the next day. When I run ragged, I tend to get sick, and that’s all I need.

I’m trying to get rid of a lot of negativity in my life. I have a friend who calls me (sometimes several times per day) to talk about other people including teachers, the principal, other parents, and other kids. It’s been weighing on me that the friendship is totally bringing me down.

If someone is bashing everyone else in town, they are likely talking about you, too. I don’t like gossip. I honestly don’t want to know what’s going on in someone’s personal life, and the last thing I’d ever do is say a child is stupid. Children aren’t stupid. Adults with no thought about anyone but themselves are stupid. I’m just not sure why other people continue to tell her things.

I’m beyond the high school stuff, and I can’t stand when this friend needs to make her child out to be the top of everything. Look, if the kid truly has an A+ average in everything and the top score in her grade, I’m thrilled for her. That’s an awesome accomplishment, but does it need to be brought up in every conversation?

I feel like my friend is unhappy and is living her life through her kids, but on the outside she has a good life. I say, on the outside, because who really knows what someone else is dealing with on the inside. She is financially set, and doesn’t need to work. She has a beautiful family and a husband who loves her.

I don’t know. I just don’t think life is about how much better you or your kids are than other people. Life is hard enough. Can’t we just let kids be kids and not stress about grades at such a young age? My kids do well in school. I don’t expect an A+ in every subject, but I expect them to work hard and do their best.

I have two children with reading and comprehension issues, so I know school isn’t always easy. My son started middle school this year and I was in a panic on whether he could handle the workload. The first month or two was crazy, but my son made the honor roll. The pride HE had with this accomplishment was awesome, because in many things he does have to work harder and longer to get good grades.

I’m super proud of my kids, but I’ll be the first to tell you they are far from perfect. The talk back, they drive me over the edge sometimes, and they make me crazy…but I wouldn’t change it. They are my everything, and I like the little people they are becoming.

I guess in that regard, I have my priorities in order. I need to sort things out and distance myself a bit from my friend as she’s bringing me down. I just want to surround myself with people who aren’t so negative. That’s almost silly to me as my other friend accused me of being negative when I started this blog.

I guess it’s fair to say I use this as a place to vent, but I don’t bash people. I often have a tough time dealing with my autoimmune issues and writing these issues down has been really good for me. I really appreciate all the nice comments and likes on the blog. I’ve had so much fun doing it.

Now how to I subtly cut my friend back quite a bit? Ideas welcome!